From the phone

You seem to happy without me. I guess I should just let you be then? After all, all I want you to be is happy. Oh if you do infact want to make this friendship, not relationship, work, come find me yeah

‘help me to help you’

yeah you posted that phrase a long time ago on your blog. i don’t know if you remember that. your moods i’ll glady put up with. your rants i’ll patiently hear. your tears i’ll wipe away. but i can’t do any of that if i have no idea what is going on with you. we’ve known each other for ages, and you don’t trust me? i come to you, as a caring and worried friend. whatever happened, you know that i will not judge. i just want to be there for you, to comfort you, to make you smile.

please. give me that chance

What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Vast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you’re feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I’d give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I’m giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you’re blue
Tell me darlin true
What am I to you

Yah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never want to part
I’m giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don’t fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you’re blue
Tell me darlin true
What am I to you
What am I to you
What am I to you

whats the new year going to bring?

happiness?

pain?

success?

failure?

love?

hate?

you?

where are you?

i miss you

what do you feel?

You’re driving me crazy, by not doing anything. I don’t know how I am going to retain my sanity. I’m freaking out about your chalet. Alcohol and him, well them I guess, counting how you used to like Nick. I know I should trust you, but it’s so difficult for me. I’m so sorry.

Oh hai

Am I just wasting my time with you? Do you just need more time? I know it’s not even one month yet, but I get the impression that you’re not really interested. I’m not saying that you have to only rant to me, but I mean, if you like someone, wouldn’t that person be the first you rant to? And let’s be clear here. We don’t exactly see each other often, and this will get even worse when my school starts again, and maybe when you start working. Doesn’t that make you want to speak to me in some other way? The only real time we speak to each other is online, which isn’t all that often anyway. I know you don’t have unlimited free sms, but I mean you can reply a message, even if you see it a few hours late can’t you?

Am I just thinking too much? Do you just need more time? Oh please tell me.

Update

So the fifth week of the holidays are here. SJII art exhibition on Friday. I’ve been spending the holidays playing xbox, listening to Oasis, and attempting to stream Leverage, and I doubt it is going to change. The nights are less painful now, less lonely. My table is pretty crap. 5 hour break on Monday, which is screaming at me to go home and sleep. The last 6 week break, I felt that after the fouth week, it was too long. But now, I feel that the holidays are too short. Maybe it was the hardass Sem 1 that we just went through. I had to buy a refurbished 16 gig nano, which was more value for money than sending in my old 8 gig one.

Went for dinner with the parents in the evening today. Came back with a smexy new FCUK watch. Never had the habit to wear a watch, but my mom wants me to create that habit. Makes me look more sophisicated anyway (:

Fat Boys tomorrow with the usual people. Hope the burgers are really good, and I’m getting seaon 1 of Chuck from Aaron Tay (:

I need to find a decent streaming website…

PS: Does anyone read this? Please drop a comment if you do.

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